My weight has been on my mind lately. I'm not fat in the grand scheme of things. But according to the scale, I'm the heaviest I've ever been, and it doesn't sit well with me. I see it in photographs of myself. I realize it.
I have been exercising regularly, so that's not the problem. I have exercised regularly this year for three months and have not lost a pound. So it has become obvious to me that eating is the problem. If you follow my blog and my Project Life album, you would come to realize by now that I love to eat and I love to take photos of the food I eat. For the most part, my everyday meals are fairly healthy. It's when I eat out, or when I have desserts and treats and chocolate and candy and ice cream, that things get out of hand. And it's portion-control.
At the beginning of 2007, when my mom died, I weighed 112 lbs. I don't want to be 112 lbs again, but right now I'm almost 20 lbs more than that. My goal is to lose 10 lbs. When I run, I can definitely feel the weight of the extra 10 lbs that I'm carrying around. It does slow me down. The weight even makes me less flexible. And let's not even talk about having to purchase bigger clothes, ugh! THAT, my friends, is the tipping point.
On Wednesday I had my Aha! Epiphany Moment. My friend Mark from work came into the office on Wednesday. I hadn't seen Mark since December because he usually works from home. Mark looked skinny! Mark lost a bunch of weight and I hardly recognized him! He looked awesome. (He's an older guy, so I wasn't admiring him in THAT way, LOL. Just that his transformation was amazing.) I asked him how he did it. He said he went to his physical in October and his doctor said he needed to do something about his blood pressure and his blood sugar. When he used to work in the office all the time, he was THAT guy who couldn't stop going over to the communal candy dish all day. Once I brought in a box of cookies from the grocery store and he came and sat in my cube and ate HALF the box of cookies while he was chatting with me. He was THAT guy. But he somehow mustered up the self-discipline and stopped eating sweets and treats, and started eating healthy food and cut out simple carbs. If HE could do it, so could I!
So here I go with my eating less and eating better adventure. I'll be excited to share any progress with you. I can't promise to not show good food on this blog though. But I'll be eating less of it, and definitely no regular treats. And if we cook any healthier food that's yummy and worth sharing, I'll definitely be doing that. We love to cook good and (relatively) healthier food. I'm lucky Todd is such a chef, for sure!