Thursday, October 11, 2007
And I ran, I ran so far away
Well, not really that far, just 3.8 miles. After work we went to Miramar Lake to run. The weather was nice, perfect for running (not too cold, not too hot). The sun was on its way down the horizon. I ran well, but I felt funny and my limbs felt tingly, which alarmed me. It felt like a panic attack might happen. But it didn't happen, so I'm thankful. Ever since the rollercoasters at Knott's Berry Farm on 9/29, I feel like my brain's wires got re-tripped and I've been more on -edge than I had been. I think I took a step backwards in this brain-rewiring process. So the lesson learned is that I need to be careful about some adrenaline pumping activities, like rollercoasters, and skydiving. And who knows what else. I'm already a very defensive driver as it is. But when my brain is hyper-alert, I jump when someone pulls out in front of me, or if someone backs out of a space in the parking lot too fast while I'm in the lane. I jump. This heightened sense of alertness is also not as fun for sleeping. This too, shall pass. I know that. I have faith that with some self-cognitive behavioral therapy, and my medication, that I will be just fine.